Day 17: Lifestyle!

Stuck a stay at home girlfriend...

     You know, a lot of people probably look down on this... But I am currently a stay at home girlfriend. Not really by choice, but just circumstance. I live here with Josh, alone, sharing a single vehicle that gets crap for gas mileage. Don't get me wrong, I love the van; but it's just not practical when it only gets about nine miles to the gallon.

     Now trust me, I've tried everything from working for customer service support over the phone to sending people's bank account transactions to the right accounts... Earning money working from home with no experience and no college history is a bust for me. And c'mon, I live in Florida, riding a bike to work everyday is just not a good idea. And plus, the remote location that I live in makes it all the more difficult. So what do I do? I keep busy at home.

     I make it my responsibility to organize meals, keep my body in shape for Josh, clean the house, organize bills and receipts, and making sure that I receive my food stamp benefits every month. I have absolutely no shame about using food stamps either. If we didn't have the food stamps... We would probably be going hungry more often than not and if it is there at our disposal I am going to utilize it.

     Trust me though, being a stay at home girlfriend isn't fun. I've been struggling with keeping myself chipper and it's very hard when you're not bringing in monetary gain. I mean, I can only clean/cook so much... Josh reassures me often that my doings take a huge amount of worry off his back, but I still get discouraged.

     Being alone all day is boring. I don't want to just "hang" with people while he's at work busting his arse. I wish that I had skills in babysitting so that I could possibly take up that... To be honest I just don't like kids. I love my little cousins and Josh's infant brother, but if I wanted a baby, I would have a baby, you know? Josh and I do not need a baby... If someone would let me take care of their pet that would be cool... But I have no experience in pet sitting, so why would someone let some strange tatted up teeny bopper care for their precious ball of fuzz?

     I guess that I'll just keep trying to get interviews locally and hopefully some lazy person at the Lifecare center where Joshua works will quit and I can do laundry or be a cook aid.